I’m frustrated.
I work really hard, but I don’t make crap for money. I have a job. A pretty demanding, detailed, time consuming job, and there are many things I love about it, but the money I bring home does not allow me to independently support myself and my kids.
It is depressing and quite frankly embarrassing and mind-blowingly frustrating!
Many years back, I left a job as an estate planning paralegal to pursue an education as a teacher. I have no idea where I would be financially now, had I stayed the legal course, but I have to admit, I wonder.
So here I am in my late thirties, with boo-coo degrees, divorced and unfortunately a stereotypical single mom. Struggling to make ends meet. Relying heavily on support payments from my ex to help me get by. Which I HATE more than anything.
I even wondered if I was near poverty level on my own. Dramatic, I know. I didn’t really believe I was but I researched it anyway, and I’m not, so I guess I should feel a little better.
Things shall change, though! It can’t be such a struggle forever. I tell myself. Something is on the horizon. It might be the horizon in Australia, but it’s there. And I’m ready and looking and waiting and anxious and excited!
But still frustrated at this moment.
Ugh. I hope that horizon is closer than you think. I hate so much on having to rely on others. Whenever my parent “gift” me with a couple of extra bucks I’m thankful but I cringe. It’s such an uncomfortable feeling.
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Thanks Laura!
Things will get better! And the good stuff out there on the horizon… it’s probably a lot closer than you think! It could be just around the corner!
Keep a positive outlook!
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Positive for sure. You are right, ya never know when the good stuff will begin!
Lots of *hugs* ‘n *luvs* to you – I know how the mid/post-divorce financial struggle can be!
I’m going to be paying off some of my ex’s debt for the next two years, and while it doesn’t sound like a long time, it feels like there’s no end in sight!
You can get through this. You have people that love and support you, and would do a lot to help you! Don’t be afraid to ask them.
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I have an amazing family and group of friends who always love and support me. I would really be a big mess without them all! Thanks for your kind words.
I feel just as broke and there are two of us contributing. The price of EVERYTHING has gone up so much our what seemed to be OK incomes are no longer OK. I get depressed when I think of all the things we will soon need money for and the what if’s and then I stop myself and take ONE HOUR at a time. Take Care!
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Exactly! It can all get overwhelming really quick and the ‘what -ifs’ are endless, so one day at a time is a great attitude!
I hate that you are struggling and I hope that that horizon comes soon!! I know that it can be frustrating to depend on your ex but try to remember that while your not together anymore that those support checks are hard earned through your share of the parenting.
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